... I figured that LJ might be worth a little update. Heaven knows that a lot has happened since my birthday =)

The long weekend that the boy came to visit was great; cosy, cuddly, comfortable and not in the tiniest bit akward. Showed him around campus, town and then let him have some time for himself walking around as I had a seminar. Haha, and he found my lectures a bit boring. Not that I blame him - I find his dissertation/Master thesis incredibly dull. His reaction to Pitcher&Piano (a bar inside a church) was so much fun! Sure he had seen it in the day, but at night it looks compeletly different. His last evening we went to the Big Wok (all you can eat chinese buffet... and the food!). Had a couple of plates, and then dessert. I can tell you it was a very slow walk back home! Then we tried watching a movie (my computer is not the best of computers) and cuddled. He didn't want to leave on the wednesday, so I suppose I must have done something right =)

So, so far 2009 has been fantastic. All apart from my results, which were.. not as good as I expected. Even my seminar tutor was disappointed when she had read my name. I am just really bad at exams and trying to write 3 essays in 3 hours just doesn't seem to work for me. On the other hand that seminar tutor is my supervisor for my Extende semester - so she'll definately push me. Which I look forward to.

On a side note - I'm flying home to Sweden in a couple of weeks to surprise the parents, and meet the boy. I look forward to seeing my parents' faces when I suddenly show up, and very much up for meeting the boy again. Though as he said; he would have come down to England again to meet me if I hadn't come up before Easter. Sweet!

And I told my parents about him. Haven't exactly had any experience with this kind of thing! Though when my mother told me she was going to the doctors to check out a lump.. then I figured why the hell not tell them right now. Can say they were very surprised to hear he was a Swedish guy, who lived in Sweden. Well, can say I'm slighty surprised too, haha.

We have decided to stay in the house. I'm pleased about that, maybe not so much that I will probably most definatly have to switch rooms.. On the other side Anna is moving in when Linda moves out. Yay! 

Small update, that took up quite a lot of space. Here I was thinking that I would actually update regularly.. guess life just gets in the way! And I finally figured out why my computer is as slow as it is (or rather the boy did..); seems I fried half my memory when I spilled my coffee on it. Fabulous. *sigh*

Unless of course there is a country where the legal age is NOT 21.. that I am not aware of. Though I highly doubt that, the 21 part, not countries that I'm aware of.

This birthday so far has been amazing! I thought that it wouldn't be that special as I had already been celebrated by my parents at home, so I figured that me and my housemates would drink my champagne from when I turned 20 and that I would get some cards... Boy was I surprised!

Have gotten birthday texts, FB wall-posts, emails/msn-conversations and this morning when I went downstairs my lovely housemates had put up balloons and banners saying 'Happy Birthday'. I even got a birthday table with a present or two and cards! Also gotten two things from home in the mail which I put there - we're celebrating at 2pm, so I get to wait another hour to open them!

And the biggest surprise of all - a man knocks on the door and gives me two huge flower bouqeuts! One is a MASSIVE 21 red roses bouquet from my parents and the cat, and the other.. let's just say that I was quite stunned. It was a bouquet of some pink roses and other flowers with a note from the boy! Me.. getting flowers.. from a guy!? Still not quite gotten that around my head =P

In any case, I need to go study some more (not that bothered about revision on my birthday actually), and then some celebrations at 2! Woop! =D

Birthday text from Rosie, that I found hilarious:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! u old old lady lol. Stay as youthful as u r. Luv u lots x

Old lady, my arse! lol

Ugh.. it's raining outside. And it's grey.. in other words boring and yucky weather. Having to study doesn't really make it any better - feel so not ready for my first exam on wednesday! =S

On the other hand, the boy is coming to visit jan 23rd-28th... and I finish exams at 12.00 so that leaves me plenty of time to get to Birmingham to pick him up. Exciting most definatly, however not the best for my study mode as I've just been thinking about what we're gonna do when he's here (e.g. Castle, town etc.)

But still, very pleased =D

And gotta love Spotify... if anybody wants an invite (who lives in Sweden or England) give me a shout.. I got 7 invites to give out, woop.

Back to studying I guess.. let me just go get some tea first!

I must say - the start of 2009 has been absolutely bloody fantastic!

I just wished I didn't have to travel back to uni just yet - but Skype really is an amazing invention. I dread to think about what a 4 hour long free Skype conversation would've cost if we had been on a cellphone.. yikes!

I am looking forward to what is going to happen next =)

I am apparantly quite the clutz. And I am never drinking coffee near my computer ever again! Wednesday was an eventful day.. First of all it was Bonfire night, and while waiting to go to the field I decided to have a cup of coffee. Made it, went upstairs, sat down and somehow managed to spill the entire cup all over my laptop!! Shit, Fuck and &$%# came out.. Never mind that it came all over my desk and my cellphone.. Minor panic attack holding it upside down and trying to dry it with a towel. Thank god it still works, but the keys on half the keyboard are crunchy and stiff and slow, and it stinks of coffee.. and this morning it said something was wrong with some cable.. so I unplugged everything started it again and then put the power back on. Gah!!

The second thing was the bonfire and fireworks - which were amazing!! Except that some idiot decided it would be fun to throw a fizzer/popper/small firework in the middle of the crowd we were in.. If my friend hadn't yelled and pushed us away I'm pretty sure we would have some injuries. Pretty scary. Went of almost right by my foot...

The third thing was that I saw most of the guys from the Rugby team naked. Not that I'm surprised anymore. Was at the pub and they were standing in the other end (this was still on wednesday) in a circle and chanting. First off came their shirts, then their trousers.. and then their boxers so they were standing completely starkers and dancing. Very interesting haha.

And today I'm going to Liverpool! It is time for Womens Indoor Regionals, and I very much hope we get to Nationals as we are hosting it at campus! Otherwise it would be very embarrassing.. and our Captain would be devastated... Speaking of, I need to start packing when I get back.. we leave tonight.

Woke up today feeling very uncomfortable. You know when you have a dream that feels really 'real' and then you wake up and just feel uncomfortable and awkward? That's pretty much me at the moment, it's starting to go away, but I am so not relishing the feeling.. =(

First of all - it is freezing!! Thankfully the house isn't as cold as some people I know (i.e. can see their own breath) but it is slightly chillly. Went to bed last night in a huge hoody, together with PJ's and nice comfy socks, and was still cold! No surprise then that I was bundled up tighter than a squished bug walking to campus, listening to my borrowed (housemate's) ipod. Love going through peoples Ipods/Ishuffles - you never know what you'll find.

Secondly - I still have a cold. Wonderful. Throat hurts and it's pretty much getting on my mood as well. My plan for the week is to stay in and get better, so I'll have the energy to put up with a bunch of guys who're crashing in my living room Friday and Saturday. It'll be a tight squeeze, but at least they'll be warm.
 

( And thirdly.. ) 

And now it is definatly time for dinner.. or at least tea and toast since I can't be bothered making dinner.

I realize I haven't been the best of 'bloggers'. I start out good, with quite a lot of posts, and then they sorta just .. drift off. It's not as if I have anything to say. I do. I just hide from them probably, or can't be bothered with them..

Take for example Facebook. Got a 2 messages from a friend (one telling me something I desperatly wanted to know but didn't want to face) and I still haven't replied. That was almost 2 weeks ago. I want to.. I just don't want to have to explain things I'm still not sure about. Which I know I'll have to do, so I keep procrastinating and shunning Facebook. I will have to face it sooner or later though, and will most certinly spend an hour or so writing back to her.

Several things have happened since last, the most recet being that I dyed my hair a bit darker. I would haved liked a more drastic result though. I feel at the moment that I just need a change. I slip back into the same old routines all the time, and while I am happy with most of them, some are not good for me. As in spending time and regretting decisions about TG.

Other things that have been going on is that I have found a supervisor for my mini-dissertation. Which has made me quite relieved, even though I have no clue how I am going to go about the topic. I should be doing more studying than I do, alot more. Last monday the entire house went out on a 7-legged barcrawl and ended up in Ocean. It was great, we were all dressed as geeks and danced the night away.

My mood at the moment cannot be described as anything cheerful. Just for today maybe, but I need.. something. Be it a date, a reckless fling, a hug or a good circuit-training. I dont' know - as long as it's something. I guess this is the aftermath of not having done any excercise for a while. That due to me being sick.

Speaking of that - went to the doctors friday. Appointment with the doctor about knees/ears etc. Then directly after with the nurse about asthma and to get a free flu shot. Couldn't get a flu shot due to illness, but had to book another appointment for tomorrow morning. Bright and early at 9 am for the doctors (to ask if I should get steroid prevention inhalors) and then to get my free jabs. And of course I see TG when going to make my appointment (and of course pretend I didn't see him, which worked quite well. not that I know if he saw me). I am over him.. but still not. I think I just need another guy to take my mind of him.. a Random Fling perhaps?

One fun thing happening next weekend is the University Open Ultimate Regionals - we're hosting it and I will be hosting a team of guys in my house as well. I have no idea how 9 guys are going to fit in my living room, but they'll have to make due. Very much looking forward to the party on saturday - it will hopefully be a blast.

I am so looking forward to circuit training on tuesday.. I need to get my mind off things, and as long as the cheerleaders keep their distance so I can race around I'll be fine. I hope.

During the first couple of weeks at uni all the sports and societies try to get people to join them. This ends up in taster sessions à la carte. Pretty much you can go to any sport and try it, without having to buy membership. And this is exactly what I've been doing, and also resulted in a very colourful me. A little recap of my week:

Monday: Gospel choir taster - lots of singing. It was fun singing again, but a bit too religious for my bit. Though I really did enjoy working the vocals again.
Tuesday: No taster, but I did go to circuit training. One word: oww....
Wednesday: What I'd been looking forward to: Archery! You need only look to the relatively new BBC Robin Hood serious to see why I was excited. Even met Stuart and James there and we had the regular banter. In other words me telling them that 'No, you can't shoot Stuart in the eye' and 'Be nice to James'. Lol. It was a lot of fun, but archery is a lot more work than I though, and painful. The bowstring and I didn't get on that well together. My elbow kept tilting in, making the bowstring hit it hard when it let go of the arrow. A massive and impressive bruise was the result of that taster.
That evening two of my housemates and I went to the Floorball taster session. Not one to have heard that name before I was surprised to find out that it was simply indoor hockey. It was an interesting and fun session. I still maintain I stink at it, but I will probably be going the taster next week.
Thursday: It was a choice between Dodgeball or Trampolining, and since my housemate was going to Trampolining and Dodgeball next week I went jumping a couple of metres off the ground. I have jumped on one before and can even manage a forward flip with no hands - but that has lead to two chipped teeth and a painful neck. Needless to say I just jumped up and down. It was fun, but scary. I prefer to keep to sports where my feet are somewhat close to the ground (as well as horseriding). Then Ultimate after that.
Friday: Just Ultimate Frisbee. I'm hoping to get into the second (heck , or third) team, I want to do some competing this year.

All in all I've done a lot of sports, and am feeling it now - I forgot to stretch!

Thursday after practice we re-instated our weekly trips to the Sherwood Bar (one of the halls on Campus) and proceded with some drinking games. Yehaw, and Fuzzy Duck. Fuzzy Duck was incredibly amusing, as I got our womens captain to state at least four times Fucky Duzz/Duzzy Fuck. (It goes 'Fuzzy Duck, Duzzy, Ducky Fuzz'). After that we all headed home to grab taxis to town where we went to this great bar called Cucamaras (£1 tequila slammers.. need I say more?) and after that we headed to Ocean for the medics annual coctail/fancy dress party. I just wish we'd gotten there earlier!

That was fun! Walked in, and saw Oompa-loompas, the Simpson family, a Walk-in Wardrobe.. you get the point. I love Ocean, I really do. It's loud, it's fun, it's cheesy, and best of all you keep bumping into people you know! =) (that can be both good and bad, but usually good). I admit that details are a bit fuzzy (pun intended) but I had a great night out. Even had a drunken MSN conversation with Christina when I got back. Haha, fun times.

The annual Goose Fayre is on this weekend and I think the whole house is going to go. Don't know if I'm keen - the weather isn't the best. On the other hand I've bought food today (had none before) and done the washing. A unproductive productive day?

I've realized that I am sort of a scaredy cat when it comes to certain things... Taking initiative with certain individuals about matters of the heart is the prime example.

As I wrote in my last entry I need to ask TG to come pick his up his 'souvenir' I got for him. And he hasn't been on Facebook for ages. So I get more and more annoyed and can't sit still. Now he actually did come online today and what do I do? I hesitate. Here I am, having been waiting for ages and when the time comes I freeze. Ok so I actually did say 'Hey' and ask how he was, but I didn't get an answer.

Why are these sort of things so ... difficult? Seriously, it is driving me mad. Sometimes I probably think too much, I certainly dream about things what I would like to happen. And in them it's more simple and usually turns out better than it would in real life. I can't exactly say to the guy 'Oh, btw, I seem to have fallen in love with you. Sorry.' I actually have that as a draft message in my phone when I had nothing to write on.. Good thing I didn't send it I guess. The whole falling in love thing doesn't really make any sense... Face to Face will probably just make me freeze and I'll screw things up.

Gah!

( Money issues with the Dragonlady )

Right, that was my rant about that. On to more fun things.

I went out clubbing/dancing for the first time in ages - the whole house went out and we had a lot of fun. Think drinking games (horseracing with cards and Ring of Fire), and dancing the night away. Good night, messy night, but good night. I was actually still slightly drunk this morning. But seeing as I had to get up at 8 maybe that wasn't much of a surprise? The person who invented showers deserves a huge thanks though. Hot water = bliss.

The Freshers Fayre has been this week - and it has been immense! I was drowning in free stuff (spatula, strawberry condoms, mens deodorant, candy, magazines etc) and especially all the flyers that I've accumulated. But it has been so much fun! I stood in the stall for the Uni magazine, as well as the Ultimate Frisbee stall. Hopefully we got lots of freshers to both. Will definatly see at the first taster session on sunday - can't wait! Also saw TG a few times - who got me and my housemate to come along to a Dodgeball taster session...

Speaking of TG, I can't decide whether to avoid him. I don't want to, but everytime I'm near I just don't go past. And today I was going to the Ultimate stand and he saw me and stuck out his tounge kind of like a greeting - what? I have to figure out how to give him his souvenir I got him back home. I don't really like it (it's a big candy cane and I find it too sweet after a while) so I won't eat it if it stays here. My plan is to basically ask him over FB; "Btw, could you come by sometime when you're free? I got something for you. It's quite silly but I bought some stuff for people when the car broke down and I had nothing to do. Got one for Rachael, although the postage wasn't the best" And if he asks why I can't come over to his place I can answer that I don't know where he lives (semi-true, I know the street but not the number) and that I would probably come at a bad time.

Now I just have to figure out when I should ask him, so he doesn't come at a bad time. Pluck up some courage maybe?